Tension. Anxiety. Worry. My own load is invisible, but it’s definitely been taking a toll. This week I learned that while I’ve been stretching my spine in downward dog, practicing deep breathing in meditation, walking the back roads of New Hampshire with a grateful heart, I’ve also been clenching my jaw. Clenching so hard and so fiercely and for so long, that I’ve cracked my back teeth and pushed my bite out of alignment as a result. It took my dad the dentist to figure it out, after I’d called him for the fifth morning in a row to…
It started on our first day at the lake, a little sensitivity on a back molar as I bit into a piece of blueberry pie. I winced, took a sip of coffee, and passed my dessert over to Jack, who was happy to have it. We were thirty minutes from the nearest town, and three hours from my dad, the only dentist I’ve ever had in my life. There wasn’t much I could do, other than try to distract myself. For three days, I managed to feign bliss and good health. I walked and ran, swam, did yoga, participated in…
A young father lay dying. Our sons, then in third grade together, had been playmates since kindergarten. When word came that Richard was ill, I’d brought soup to the door, then lemon cake. Such small gestures; just a way to say, “I am thinking of you.” One day I stayed on to chat with Richard in the quiet house, and later his wife Jane called and asked if perhaps I could come again. So it was that in the midst of my busy life with two small children, I was invited to pause, and to draw close to death….
It is August and the goldenrod is in bloom alongside the road. Last night, I lay in bed, windows opened wide, and listened to the thrum of crickets, a symphonic prelude to summer’s end. I think back to all the things I was so sure I’d do this summer, to the private to-do list I wrote for myself the first week of June, and realize that I’ve made precious little progress on any of those projects. What have I been doing all this time? The fact that I’ve managed to write a weekly blog entry, answer most of my…